Fighting to let go

Fuck no. I was wrong about what I said last night. I'm sorry i mentioned all that shit to you. That's what I'm fucking sorry about. I'm sorry because right now, i'm gonna fucking take back all the fucking apologies i said to you last fucking night that you didn't even fucking bother to reply. I'm sorry i get so fucking jealous at the fucking sight of every fucking thing. I'm sorry you don't fucking love me for who the fuck I am. I'm sorry I'm not her. I'm sorry I keep trying to fucking hold on. I'm sorry I can't move on so quickly. I'm sorry that I forgot those pictures were all in the past. I'm sorry I'm so direct. I'm sorry I'm not shy enough to fight for you. I'm sorry I'm someone you don't even have to fight for, because I'm always here for you. I'm sorry I'm not who you expected me to be. I'm sorry for even trying to make everything right. I'm sorry for giving a flying fuck about everything that is concerning you. I'm sorry I've always believed in you. I'm sorry I've never fucking lose hope. I'm sorry because only now you fucking realise that I'm not the kind of girl who gives up. I'm sorry you used to love me for having guts, for standing up for myself. I'm sorry that this has to happen. I'm sorry I always get fucking fucking upset over the slightest issue. I'm sorry I can't help every single shit I'm feeling right now. I'm sorry the fucking tears are flowing. I'm just fucking sorry I'm not perfect. But ALWAYS KNOW that I've never made you an option, and always know that I've always always always spare a thought for you. I'm sorry I'm just another girl. I'm sorry for being who I am to you. I'm sorry I didn't lie and hide it from you so that you will love the fake side of me instead. I get your fucking point now. But the only person I feel truly sorry of is myself.

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